Why people tend to push us deeper and harder after confession and realization!
- “He can’t get out of his addiction!”
- “There is no cure for such people!”
- “One he entered, there is no way to get out!”
- “Be careful, don’t hang out with him. He used drugs, he can influence you to take some!”
- “He can’t succeed because he was drinking and taking drugs!”
Should I continue? These are few of the lines that drug addicts and alcohol addicts hear over and
over again. People, our families, don’t do that to us, don’t say words like that. We know that we
have made mistakes, we know that it would be difficult, but please don’t push us. Honestly, we are
very damaged, we are insecure, we failed so many times that we don’t know how to succeed.
Unless you want to help us unless you show us how unless you teach us.
Psychologically, it is very difficult to start from the beginning when you are 25,37,42,49,52 years old.
You learn how to talk to people, what to think, even how to work properly. Many of us lost even
their jobs, and now they are jobless and don’t make even a penny daily. How many months, years,
and sometimes decades passed until we realized that we failed, that we lived in a parallel universe.
Drugs and alcohol create a parallel universe, that is far away from reality, far away from everyday
life. Bringing up the decision to stop, and to try to be sober means that today you are waking up
sober, with a clear mind in a world you don’t belong to. You have your family and friends angry at you.
You know why they are angry, but what you don’t know is what have you done particularly because
many times you don’t even remember because you were under the influence of drugs and alcohol.
People that know you don’t respect you, since you are “different” because you have failed so badly
that you hit the bottom making a hole in it!
Today I am waking up sober. No drugs, nor alcohol in my blood. It is same like you are waking up
after a hangover with a good looking girl next to you, except that you are not waking up after one
night of booze, but you are waking up after years of being under the influence of cocaine and
alcohol. And there are no girls around you. Rather, you are alone, and even your family doesn’t want
to have anything with you. And your wallet doesn’t have $200 less from last night, but it is empty
and you have nothing left. You don’t have a missed call from your friend to tell you that it was an
awesome night, but you have a missed call from a drug dealer that you owe him money. You realize
that you have nothing, and the question is: How to survive from here?
This is the breakeven point where many people go back to alcohol or drugs, or both of them. They
have nothing to hope for, they don’t know anything better. That is why you shouldn’t judge us. We
are fragile enough to see that we are not good enough. But you, just say that we can and you might
be our turning point, our hope, our realization that we really can and that we will fight!